I figure today is as good of a day as ever to start trying to blog again. It's been a heck of two years with the loss of my marriage and all the adjustments to a new life as a single mom; thus my blog name-Life Through a Single Lens-- with a little photography love thrown in there.
After being a stay at home mom for 19 years, now seeing what I do as a single mom, wow what a roller coaster ride. Life is surely different. But it is simmering down finally enough to know that no matter what I am truly blessed. I have not failed, nor wasted half my life, nor am I losing my mind, as I first thought and felt when everything fell apart. I have my three beautiful children that I am here for to continue loving, raising and just enjoy having them in my life no matter if I have to do it alone or not. They are my life!
I wanted to document through the divorce process but my mind was so tangled and heart so hurting that it was enough to just get through one day at a time let alone write about it after I had been living it. So maybe someday I can put it all down on paper if not only to make me feel cleansed totally. I have made it thus far because the grace of GOD he has shown me that He is there for me and will never leave me in times of trouble or good.
Today marks my 47th year of life. I don't feel 47...still feel as young 18 sometimes, but then after the past two years feel So much older.
My kids all three were here for my special day as was my brother. It was so special to have them here. Nothing means more than having 'family' around you.
Jim bought mouth watering steaks, Cindy my dear friend brought home made potato salad and we had baked beans or 'sweet' beans as Hayden would say. And a birthday cake to boot with Happy Birthday Mom, Britt and Lisa on it. Britt is my nickname that my brother has called me forever thanks to my grandfather when I was little. I have hated to be called that all my growing up years by anyone...but now have to admit that I do love it. It is a term of endearment in a sense and gives me that feeling of 'home'.
Now I will turn in as I have a week of 13 preschoolers to look forward to and a beginning to what I hope and pray will be a fresh start for me? I am feeling optimistic today...mark that down in your books! lol not something I say very often.
Til next time-g'night!!
